The problem I have when when writing these blog posts is thinking really hard about how I take the text and relate it to my audience. How do I attempt to accomplish this if i don't even understand the text myself? I find myself somewhat confused reading through crime and punishment. Through reading the text I hope The problem I have will emerge itself revealing to me the obvious thematic concept I have missed all along. When writing the blogs I'm easily tempted to skip from one piece of the text to the next to relate a lot of information at once. The other problem I seem to have is writing quality of the work. Instead of writing reflective pieces i'm writing substance without anything substantial. It's a dilemma i'm still struggling with. In an attempt to showcase my understanding of the text I will focus on guilt through the pages of part 2: chapter one of crime and punishment.
For that initial second he thought he was going insane.A terrible coldness had seized him; but the coldness was also due to the fever which had begun in him a long time ago, while he had been asleep. Now he was suddenly attacked by an argue so violent that his teeth nearly leapt from his mouth, so violently did they chatter, and his entire body started to shake. p.109 |
Reflecting upon the previous blog post I realize I was too harsh and jumped ahead far to quickly and judging the author. In Part One Raskolinikov violently kills and old women with an ax and runs away before the police arrived. The graphic scene was placed within that chapter to showcase the terrible act and to connect Raskolinkov of his guilt. In chapter one Raskolinkov is on the run with paranoia The guilt of killing the old women is affecting him completely consuming all of his thoughts and actions and who he interacts with. Within this passage I really like a choice of the words. The author uses great creative words like coldness and chatter. In this instance coldness is meant to represent the deep or act he commented while chatter is the nervousness of being discovered by either the authorities or friends. He only becomes more guilty as time goes on.
There are some stain, but they're not very noticeable; the blood all covered in dirt and grime, it's got discoloured, if one didn't know in advance, one would never see it. p. 144 |
To try to hide his guilt he convinces himself that he won't be discovered. He is delusional and by making too many mistakes like slipping thoughts about the old women's death only persuades me to believe that he will be discovered. This only confirms the truth that Roskolnikov is insane. I imagine however, that anyone in his circumstance might do something similar because when you commit a murder you change. You become paranoid at the most simplest of tasks.
"The worst of it is that I'm almost delirious...I may go and say something stupid... p. 115 |
He fears that he might get drunk and tell his secrets, so he avoids drinking. He is defiantly guilty, but is still trying to convince himself of his reasoning for committing the crime. This is just delirious because he should just save himself the trouble and tell the police the truth. This sentence foreshadows the provability of his discovery. This method of guilt is an example of Prophetic Code because by looking at the events of how he is guilty and the reasons why he believes he isn't guilty. The events respond to each other creating road map to explaining the novel. In response to his fear
A search, a search, there'll be a search without a delay! he said to himself, hurrying to get back to his room. The crafty devils! They suspect! Again he was seized by his former sense of terror, all over, from top to toe. p.129 |
By this point I believe that Raskolinikov is absolutely insane by trying to hide. He believes he can escape, but he is too careless. The police by questing him about money has somehow led him to panic. He believes they will search his apartment in through his delemina decides to get rid of some stuff.
Underneath it there was a small hollow; into this he began to throw the entire contents of his pockets. The purse went on the top of the pile, yet there still remained room in the hollow. Then he seized hold of the block, heaved it back with one push into a former position, and there it sat, just as it had been, except that it looked possibly a shade higher. But he ranked some earth round it, pressing it into place with his foot. Nothing could be seen. |
Somehow he believes by burying the evidence he is now free of the murder. The truth is he nowhere near free and I predict it will only get worse. I don't believe with the author's choices to allow these character to murder someone randomly without cause. That doesn't mean I don't find it interesting. It just is morally wrong. Reading forward I predict Raskolinkov will get himself into even more trouble.